Messy Heart

I so messy now
Don't know why
Cause of coffee
I love coffee now
How ?
I really trouble
How can i treat him
Tell him the true
Don't really want
But i don't wanna lie him
I can't
But afraid to tell him the true
I'm so deep on him
But he make me very disappointed
What can i do...

Wanna cry
Cause i really make myself to do that
Even you don't know ,i also can't make it right ?
I know he is a nice boy
Better than him
But how dare i can be like that
It's true
I'm done it
I'm so selfish
This is the fourth time
I scared lose it ?
Don't really know that
I'm LOSE !